my life's effing messed up ):

im so transparent, yeah? i seriously wonder if i am a friend to you. sometimes it's really good if you can tell someone that you dont like him/her instead of acting as a friend. actually i DO care, in fact i think that you're the one who dont. i seriously dont understand what's going on and why it's like that. if ive done something wrong, im SORRY. i dont wanna ruin this friendship you see. i hate the feeling of being not cared of, hate it A LOT. sorry once again, i suck at expressing my feelings.

forth night of crying
im tired of putting on an act of being happy...