I'm so tired, physically and mentally.

I feel so effing screwed up it's like a wasted my hols. And I'm panicking like mad, lagging behind the schedule I initially planned for myself. I'm still on my first subject after 2 weeks of holiday, AND I STILL CANT GET MY BASICS RIGHT. Such a failure, right? It sucks, spending 2 hours on an essay and realizing that I misinterpreted the question and I've wasted my effing time on a piece of crap when I dont even have much time left. Am I dumb or what. This isn't fun at all. This sucks.